Confessing Something Embarrassing
You realize that you have been living in a city for too long when you all of a sudden get stuck in a situation which makes you remember that you are afraid of the dark.
Yes, this is embarrassing but I have always been extremely afraid of the dark, and I still am apparently even though I had managed to forget about it for a while. I was going through a dark forest today doing cross country skiing when I got the old creeps and just wanted to get out of there. I started seeing the dark, moving shadows and hear rustling all around me...
When I was younger and ended up in situations where I was alone outside in the dark I would run as fast as I could to the next place with lights and preferably people. Even inside houses I could not enter rooms without turning on the lights first. The most embarrassing part was that I was so afraid of the dark that I even had to sleep with the lights on for few years. I no longer do that, but I have often wondered whether this is the reason I like falling asleep with the lights on to later turn them off.
I guess, living in a city really suits me since there are lights almost everywhere (but at the same time it is annoying). It however annoys me most that I still haven't outgrown my fear of the dark. Am I the only one that has kept my silly fear of the dark or are there other grown-ups out there like me?
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Thank you S for telling me your story. I have fought few things in a similar way but the fear of dark still seems to daunting. I am no longer afraid of going into a dark room. That I have overcome. The fear mostly appears if I am alone in a house that isn't right next to another house or out somewhere in the dark (for example forrest). I guess I should just go out and stand in the forrest for a while. I am just not brave enough for some reason. I will keep your story in mind though and maybe one day I will make a leap when in the right situation. I promise to blog about it if I do.
Aadil, how does one become the fear itself? Should I color myself black? :-). You should visit Iceland if you get the chance. It is really nice... when it is not raining that is:-)
No Gerdour, to become fear yo
No Gerdour, to become fear you must wear tight leather outfit with cap and hang on building tops at night. I admit this will decrease your social life activity but it will boost your popularity. ;p
I like rain, I think I will love Iceland. Icelandic women too. :)
Aadil.mu.
Dark Ice-angel
Gerdur is the new Jessica Alba? ;-) She's known for almost always ending up half naked in the movies, and recently was honoured the dream girlfriend among American men. Not sure if there is a correlation between those two.
"To overcome the fear you mus
"To overcome the fear you must become the fear" - Liam Something in Batman Begins
Aadil.mu
p.s the Icelandic view in the movie was soo stunning! My jaw just dropped. :)
I am not afraid of the dark a
I am not afraid of the dark anymore. Although when I was younger I could not step into dark rooms just like you.
I can still remember the time when I over came this fear. I was frustrated about being scared of the dark, so I decided to fight it. I did so by stepping into the creepiest dark room in our home, and I (literally) asked the evil forces to come out and attack me, or I would never fear them again. After standing there for a little while I thought I heard a squeek. My hands turned into fists, and my senses widened to feel the surrounding darkness for anything moving towards me. My feet wanted to turn around and run away. But something had taken hold of me. Had my nightmares come true? Was this the end? I was determined to fight.
I soon realised it was not a force of evil, but a new found strength which kept me from running away. I had finally beaten that which lurked in the darkness; my fear.
I don't mean to brag. I only hope you can find some inspiration somewhere in there. Let me know if you do. :)
- S.